So here I am sat by the laptop yet again but this time the sun is shining and it's yet another boring Sunday. Ok I guess the call for this entry is kind of a little update on the ye olde recovery front. Yeah so lately it's been getting me down not being able to do the things I normally enjoy like going on long walks, big shopping sprees, enjoying a drink in the sunshine or even anything else that might come along. No I'm meant to take it easy - it's far too boring.

I did start feeling low and I thought crap not again I can't go down this road again and I'm not going to let my operation get me down so I've been kind of pushing myself a little to do more things. Not to the extreme mind you, yesterday was meant to go help take photos down band practice for my best mate's boyfriend's band but the drummer had other plans so it got cancelled. I then receive a phone call saying about it and that they were off down the sand dunes and I opted not to go just incase things got a bit too much for me with having to climb up dunes and what have you so had a little sulk that I was stuck in on such a glorious day. THEN luckily had a call to go down the local for a drink as they hadn't left yet - at least I'm still getting out of the house although one of the women who works in the same place as me seemed to find it fun to look down her nose at me cos im in the local but im not in work. She can go fuck herself the local is like 5 houses away from mine and im drinking fucking pop not as if I'm taking the piss and getting wasted, I'm just there to get out of this house as I'm sick of the same four walls!!

So after much deliberation I think fuck it and decide to go down the dunes with them for a bbq which turned out to be a great afternoon in the sun (and not burn woo), I'm glad I decided to go although I opted out of the venture up the mountain and going by the phonce conversation this morning good thing I did as coming back in pitch dark wouldn't be good at all.

Stroll on the day when I can go on long walks and can go enjoy myself all I want, although I do think somehow something is not going to heal too good - well for one the part of my scar by my belly button is nice and infected I think and it managed that all by itself so on the phone to district nurse tomorrow and see what we can do about it.

Anyways lets go attempt to enjoy the sunshine whilst being stuck indoors with maybe the possibility of going out later, maybe.

xxx